Found a couple of trashed pages that seem to be ripped out from a diary. I'm fascinated by the writer's love and fears. Here are my favorite excerpts:
Sep 12, 2012
"I love her so very much and she loves me.
I feel almost guilty that I am so happy and I fear something will happen, something that will take away my happiness.
I fear this so much that I almost feel inclined to pray. I pray, I hope with every single fiber in my heart that I do not lose anymore loved ones. My heart cannot handle anymore pain."
Sep 17, 2012
"What if I don't accomplish everything I have planned?"
Sep 9, 2012
"G and I have been fighting alot.
[..]
I get scared when things like this happen because I thought love is all you need and I fear that there might be an underlining problem. I wish Nov. came sooner."
Oct 2, 2012 1:52 PM
"I've been having panic attacks. I get so scared and anxious for no reason at all. I'm afraid of losing everyone I care about."
Nov 19, 2012
"I remember waking up to the sound of Ba grinding coffee. I remember he would always let us grind coffee beans for him.
[...]
I remember when Ba would shave Bab and I would make RAZORS out of legos. Ba would put shaving cream on our faces and let us "shave" with him."
April 29, 2013
"Much has happened since my last post . Feeling depressed again. Not going to have a drinking problem again, promise."
June 2, 2013
"I'm losing grip with reality. I feel like I don't know what's real or what's my mind playing tricks on me. I don't know who I am.
I cannot handle the stress."
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